Happy Times

I'm trying to adopt the very contagious "happy" outlook on life. I'm starting to think the only way to do it though, is to remind yourself everyday of what makes you happy instead of rehashing what upsets you. So I'm going to try. I feel like I'm a stump on a log sometimes, and I know everyone can be but I feel I am more often then most. First I'm going to lay out what it is I feel I'm missing so that I can leave it alone and move on.

1st and foremost - my job. it's boring and drains the life out of me everyday by the time I leave. I just want to go home and sleep. which brings us to

2nd - I feel lazy... like I don’t do anything. Maybe I miss school, and homework and studying for tests. I'm not sure. It's just that going home and having nothing to do drives me crazy. Like I need to implement my own mandatory housework or socializing work everyday so that I have some direction when I get home. I hate waisting the rest of the day sitting on my couch.

3rd - I'm lonely. Not only in the no one loves me way, although it would be nice to have a mutual love interest. I don’t really feel like I have many friends anymore. In college we had a ton of ppl that wanted to hang out after school until real late and all weekend long. Now, I have nothing to keep me busy AND no one to hang out with. (Besides my two lovely ladies that read this...)

4th - I'm fat. I'm working on it, but it's really hard. Every time I go on a diet I get hungry all day long. Like I know I shouldn’t eat it so I have to eat it... I set ridiculous goals for myself and beat myself up for not reaching them. Like now... I set a 3 lb weight loss per week goal.. I've lost like 2 in a whole month! Way to go me! :(

I'm sure there are more... but those are the big ones.

So to try and be happy more I'm going to:

1 - look for a new job within the company for 2-3 months after my 1 year hits (June 1st) then start looking outside. Find something new and interesting. Maybe a job that isn’t confined to a desk. My only hesitation is that b/c of my lease and rent due, I'd need to make at least what I'm making here... which really isn’t a lot and shouldn’t be too hard to do... lets hope.

2 - I already swim with mom and Amanda 2 to 3 times a week and go to moms on Tuesday for Biggest Loser. But I really enjoyed going to Taylor and Olivia's house for tutoring b/c it gave me a new thing to do. For two hours I was back in school helping little girls study. So I don’t know if I need to look for volunteer tutoring places or what, but I enjoyed having somewhere to be where my showing up mattered.

3 - I know for the love portion, no one can help me but myself... I'm utterly awkward and it doesn’t help. I'm shy and standoffish but I know the only way to meet the one is to meet everyone. I need to go out and socialize. Doing so might introduce new friends to my life. I loved the ones I had but people grow up and a lot of the time apart. It's not like they are completely gone or there was some big falling out with anyone, really, just that we don’t all doing much together anymore. Everyone's kinda doing there own thing.

4 - Keep on, keepin on. I've just got to accept that this is going to be a lifelong journey for me. I've always been big so it's always going to be something I have to work on. I'm going to need to dress up more (at my size) not wait to loose weight to buy clothes. Be happy for how I am while I am...

So there ya have it. I'll try to do a things that make me happy w/ pictures a little later when the new pics have been updated.

Love y'all!

Apriltastic

Soooo... we have a pretty fun Weekend planned. Starting tonight with hang outs with Allie and little B. Then tomorrow I hope I can just hang tight and stay at home for a bit. Get some laundry and cleaning out of the way. (Which totally reminds me... I forgot to move my loads over this morning. Dang it.) Then Saturday, Momma, Amanda and I are gonna go to Ennis for the Bluebonnets festival!! I'm excited. I love mini road trips and festivals. Then sometime Saturday and/or Sunday I'm sure we're celebrating Austins birthday. The big 22. Lol. Freaking baby. I'm sure we'll have lots of pics, just dont know when I'll be able to upload them. I'll try though. Maybe Sunday. Hope you have a fun weekend TOO!

Sooo I'll leave you with some pics of my doggies. The just get cuter and cuter.

Quinn laughing and having a good time.

Rascal tuckered out but still handsome.
Squish... doing what he does best. Being terrifyingly attractive.

Looking forward

So this was a nice weekend. The weather was amazing and I feel like I accomplished some things. Not a ton of things, but a little at least. Paid rent, paid doctor, mailed some stuff... etc. On Friday, Mr. Austin, decided to open so he could get off work and hang with us. We took a ultra-mini-road trip to Fort Worth and ended up parking in a church lot b/c it was the only free parking due to the Good Friday Mass. Walked around a lot in the Water Gardens and down into some of the bar/shopping area. Grabbed a drink and got on the road. I wanted to go to Argyle... b/c hello, I love Argyle sweaters. I knew it was close to Denton but I didn’t know exactly where so we made it up to Lewisville and detoured again to the CCA up there. It was kinda disappointing. More on the Goodwill side of things. Then we walked another shopping/eating area and grabbed dinner. Expensive dinner. But it was good and headed home. Amanda had plans with Sandi but Austin and I didn’t have any so we tagged a long. Just sat at her house reading internet funnies and catching up on what’s going on with her. She had to work in the morning so we didn’t stay long.
Saturday we went to Mommas to help her with Easter. Sam and Pam were at a Flea Market of sorts so it was just the 3 of us and Monster - like old times :). We caught up on some TV and dyed some eggs. Then headed back home to go Easter basket shopping with Amanda and Austin. Drove around some after that and ended up in Historic Downtown McKinney. Yes, Allie we were close to you but it was like 10:45pm... but we HAVE to explore this area with you in the day time where the shops are actually open. It was super cute. We called it a night not too late b/c we all had Easter plans. Got up hung with the dogs. Had brunch just me and Amanda at the Egg and I. The Easter bunny paid us a visit and we totally took a picture. Unfortunately I'm at work and cant upload it (or any from the weekend). We got to mom's around 2pm and they had hid Easter Eggs all over the "living areas" so Amanda and I rifled through our baskets and then dumped them out to hunt for eggs. Yes we are 23 and 25. It was actually really fun. So b/c we're twins we each ended up with half. 30 eggs each. We had delicious food and played two games of dominos. Then we headed home, again. Hung out with Austin, again. Then we headed to bed to get up for work today. And so I'm here - blogging when I could be working. But what’s the fun in that?

Happy Monday! Have a great week!

lah tea dah

So... not much is really going on but I'm kinda bored and wanted to add a post. I always feel akward doing stuff like this or playing on FB at work b/c ppl can see me and they give me dirty looks. :/

Anyway - so sum up March since I left it off. Amanda's bday was a blast. Good turn out of ppl. Not too much drama. Super fun with games and drinks. All over good time. :)

The weather is starting to look up so - even though I really wanted to take today off and spend it outside, I came to work. BOOOO! It's ok. After work we can spend outside. Amanda and I both have to get our cars inspected today. I bet it's going to be a mad house anywhere we go b/c of all the other procastinators. But after that it's all fun in the sun!

Not a lot going on next month I think, but we'll see what comes around.

This weekend :)

I'm actually looking forward to this weekend. I'm hoping it will be quiet and productive. I've spent a lot of money recently but it was for a good cause - Amanda's bday (no expense is too much) and St. Pattys (it only come around once a year). However, there are still some things that i want to get. Like summer shoes. I'm real excited about sandals. I love open toed shoes. I think I hear Target calling my name. I already got one... but I figure at $20 a pair, it's really not that bad. Also... some new tops and skirts/dresses. I'm feeling the girly vibe (that is so not like me) but I'm going with it. We'll see just how far I go with it, but I'm gonna start now.

I want to spend every weekend outside... doing something. Even if it's just like outdoor market/mall window shopping. I want to be out, in the sunshine (when it finally gets here for good) and enjoy it. Who's with me? If it sways you, Allie... I might even go to the ZOO!

Outdoor summer events I'm excited for:
Brooks and Dunn Concert
Dave Matthews Concert
Baseball games (at least 2, hopefully 4)
Arboretum (finally - Amanda, ya down?)
Zoo (if Allie so wishes)
Random photo-ops at parks
Festivals:
Lone Star State Park
Fair Park Dog Bowl (not sure what it is exactly but I wanna go for the puppies)
Taste Addison
Lake Grapevine Fireworks (every Friday from Memorial Day to Labor Day)
Denton Air Fair Fest (for mom... she loves planes)
USO party for my bday.... oh yes!
Oktoberfest
State Fair
Addison World Fest (kinda weird, so not a have to go)
Addison Bookworm Bash (BOOKS!!!)

*ok, so maybe I went a little crazy... some of those are after "summer" but it's ok. It's still fairly warm here until November-ish. :)

It's a pretty good day and I'm in an optimistic mood. Again, I cant wait for this weekend even though there is no concrete plan. I'm also excited for some "surprise" Amanda and Allie are keeping from me. It's ok... I like surprises.

My most fav person is having a birthday...

... that's right. It's you, Amanda!! :)

And in honor of your day I'm updating my blog. Today isn’t so bad... but the month of March hasn’t gotten much better overall. In last blog I talked about a few upcoming events:

Sam and Pam moving - awkward. love them to death but it's so weird having them at mom's house all the time. It's most different than awkward... but sometime a combo of the two.
Irish Fest - missed it
St Pattys Parade - missed it
Amanda's birthday - TODAY! Celebrating it in full swing at work. This morning we got up and went to Denny’s for her free bday grand slam. Got to work right on time. Had delicious chicken salad sandwiches at lunch (thanks, Linn). Plans for after work: Check on the pooches. Get pedi/mani. CCA for a table I hope they still have b/c she wants its. Dinner with Mom, Sam and Pam. Cake and Presents. A fairly action packed day, don’t ya think?

Later in the month - Amanda's actual party. Should be a blast. I still don’t know what I'm gonna be... or how to dress up.

Just for redundancy - Happy Birthday Amanda!!! Hope 25 treats you well!

March

Soooo March is generally one of my fav months. I have no plans to change this but have to admit it has not started off with a bang. Granted we are only 3 days in... but I'm in a down and out mood and just over all not feeling it. With that said there are a lot of things to look forward to this month... Sam and Pam moving out here (will at least be very different and interesting), Irish Fest, Saint Pattys Parade and Amanda's 25th bday bonanza... there is also this thing I don’t have much info on but am interested in at Fair Park called Lone Star State Fest. It’s the last weekend in March so we’ll see if I end up doing anything for it.

Today is crazy busy but since I’m not really feeling it I thought I’d take a minute for myself (and fill you in). Have a nice rest of the week… I’m gonna try to do the same myself.